tomorrow a new point of view…

changes are good…i guess…

i think i am crazy mostly….but everyone else thinks it’s stress.

my family here cares about me…and are helping me cope with this feeling of complete helplessness. i now share in new opportunities this summer. different than planned. i now have the privilege of running power point, while nikki is miss. rustler and the amazing stacey hoffman refs.

i never thought this is how my last summer here (quite likely) would turn out…

i am finding it is hard to have people do things for you. i have always found it was easier to take care of yourself. and now that i can’t…here i am kicking and screaming. it’s hard.

how humbling it is to know people want what is best for you…and willing to change anything to help. but i know i would have done the same…

i wonder what this summer will look like. how will i grow? how will i cope? how will i heal?

god is in control. i am finding it is hard to accept it when we find out we are not.

pray for healing. pray for guidance. pray for peace.

thank you all so much for helping me. continue on even when i act like i don’t need it.

man this is so sappy.

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jasen is the best fiance in the whole world.

and kyle is a good fish sitter…however… i think he taught olivia how to flip people off with her fin…

so our story began one year ago today!!! i fell for this wonderful woman named amanda christine shilling and we began dating…seems like just yesterday….cant wait for many more years to come!

my computer does not receive good internet connection…hence the delay in posting…

plus i really can’t find the right words…

camp starts today. and i don’t feel completely connected. humm…

but i should be a good summer none the less…

keep me in your thoughts as i try and embrace normality…

life has been so busy for us…

between moving and relocating…but now we are some what settled at Pondo.

invitations are in the works and we are so excited to share them with you.

(no sneak peaks….we want it to be a surprise!)

a big shout out to our special friend who recommended us at bed bath and beyond…we appreciate the thoughtfulness!

our catering is booked…check out the yummy goodness here…