my $40 "tension" headache…

i went to the doctor yesterday for him to tell me i am suffering from “tension” headaches…

$40 dollars later.

i could have told myself that i am under too much “stress”.

his anecdote…relax.

if only i had the option.

uh…can i have my money back?

so now… i live with the headaches and survive on ibuprofen. my head hurt so bad last night that i was afraid to fall asleep.

my doctor also noted on my record that i was in need for blood work…

so i get in line…pay more money for a big man who speaks no english to steal my blood. i asked him why..and he mutters…”me no understand…me no doctor.” “you needa to aska him…”

what i need was someone to hold my hand. i was a nervous wreck.

so since everyone was super pissy at the hospital…(and i even was funny! no one laughed!) i walked back to my car and cried for a while.

i hate feeling alone. i hate sickness. i hate that i hate.

i remember there was a time when i used to be an optimist. what happened?

this is the best season of my life. more amazing things have happened this year…then practically my whole life.

and i suffer from “tension” headaches…

what is this i have become?

and where is amanda?

and why are people at the medical buildings so angry?


4 thoughts on “my $40 "tension" headache…

  1. i hear smoking pot will get rid of those headaches… i mean you know if the booze cant knock them out. anyway the good news is i get paid vacation this is good cause im coming to your wedding.

  2. I’m sorry people are mean and you have headaches. We need to hang out, that will make things better 🙂

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