i went to the doctor yesterday for him to tell me i am suffering from “tension” headaches…
$40 dollars later.
i could have told myself that i am under too much “stress”.
if only i had the option.
uh…can i have my money back?
so now… i live with the headaches and survive on ibuprofen. my head hurt so bad last night that i was afraid to fall asleep.
my doctor also noted on my record that i was in need for blood work…
so i get in line…pay more money for a big man who speaks no english to steal my blood. i asked him why..and he mutters…”me no understand…me no doctor.” “you needa to aska him…”
what i need was someone to hold my hand. i was a nervous wreck.
so since everyone was super pissy at the hospital…(and i even was funny! no one laughed!) i walked back to my car and cried for a while.
i hate feeling alone. i hate sickness. i hate that i hate.
i remember there was a time when i used to be an optimist. what happened?
this is the best season of my life. more amazing things have happened this year…then practically my whole life.
and i suffer from “tension” headaches…
what is this i have become?
and where is amanda?
and why are people at the medical buildings so angry?