The Diary of a Disgruntled Runner v8 (Final)

it has been like 3 weeks since we ran our half marathon.

i survived! yahoo!

were you concerned? did you think i feel of the levee? well, i am alive and well and have decided to give up running. more on that later.

the race snuck up on us very quickly. jasen and i became very “laid back” about the whole thing. training? nah.

we had plans to trade-off pushing the stroller throughout the race. then one day, jasen suggested we get a babysitter.

man, is he smart or what?

the night before, we went to our traditional dinner at hot italian. we sat outside and enjoyed our favorite pizza. and probably asked ourselves several times, “why are we doing this again”?

the morning of, hazel’s babysitter came bright and early and we made our way to the park. since parking is such a pain, we walked the 2 miles to the start. a pre-race warm up, if you will. we made a decision that we were going to just enjoy the race. take what comes. stop at the drink stations, and walk whenever we need to. having that pressure off our backs was amazing. knowing that we can finish whenever we want to, no matter what the time it is, was such a great feeling.

we lined up in the back and when the horn sounded we felt excited. before we knew it we had run 5 miles. just like that! i had some aches in my toes and was having a hard time trying to figure out what was wrong. later, we discovered my brand new shoes are too small. (thanks pregnancy!) when we reached half way, i remembered an “exercise” a friend told me about when she ran a marathon. before the race, she chooses 26 people to think about one for each mile. on mile 6, i choose my sister-in-law’s mom who is struggling with some health issues. it is amazing how your mind is lifted to somewhere else. it’s harder than you think it would be, but i am excited to try it again.

mile 6-9 were where i hit my stride. jasen and i made a deal that we didn’t have to wait for each other if the other was feeling strong. i realized if i ran really fast, i would get to the water stations quicker and then i could have a break. once i hit mile 10, the farthest in my training i hit a little wall. it was warmer than i would have liked, so i walked. and walked. and walked some more. i ended up finishing in the 2:27 time frame. definitely my slowest time. but, i wasn’t miserable. after a little rest, we walked the 2 miles back home, for a grand total of 17 miles.

this picture was towards the end of my training. i had a long day at work, and really didn’t feel like going for a run. especially pushing a stroller.

yes, especially that.

jasen said he would stay with Hazel and that i should go. and i am so glad i listened. i ran by this beautiful tree and couldn’t stop thinking about it. i ended up running back 0.25 mile and took a picture of it. i remember as i headed home, all of the wonderful moments i have had in running. and there were a lot. somehow, during this season of my life i have seemed to have forgotten. running has become more of a “have to” then a “want to”. who knows if i will ever be back to where i was. but, when i do run…i want to love it.

and right now, i don’t love it.

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